Details! August 31, 2006

So here’s the story. I’m posting it not only for those who asked, but also for posterity’s sake (as if I’d forget, but you know…).

I got home yesterday a little early and decided that I would go ahead and start dinner because I wanted to eat something that needed to cook down for awhile. I started up around 4:30/5:00 and Scott got home a little after 5:00. He asked if he could go hop in the shower before helping me and I said that it was OK and off he went. I was doing my thing and he came back in around 5:25 and was hanging out by the stove. He told me about how he was thinking of our first date on the drive home. Then he said, “Do you remember how I asked if I could kiss you?” and I said, “Yeah. You said that you had been wanting to kiss me all night and then you asked my permission. That was so cute!” He said, “Well, I’ve been wanting to propose to you all day. Will you marry me?” Down on one knee and everything. He said he was going to do it this weekend in Chicago but just couldn’t wait until then. I think it was perfect because it was so very unexpected.

Obviously I said yes and was a bit of mess for a minute or so (we both were). Then we proceeded to call everyone. It was a really awesome night. We have a lot to start working on in the next few months. We haven’t officially discussed anything with anybody yet, but we’re thinking May. I will definitely keep everyone posted!

Sooooooooooooooooo excited!!!!!

August 30, 2006

A temporary good-bye August 21, 2006

I have a lot going on in my life right now. I have a paper, a couple of articles, 4 grad classes and a full-time job to contend with. Methinks I’m not contending w/ it very well, seeing as how I’ve yet to write a word on anything and I’ve done but a small fraction of my reading. Therefore, my dears, I am taking some time off of LJ. I won’t check my own LJ, I won’t check my friends lists, communities, etc. I’m going to log myself out both here and at home, because really, if I’ve got spare time, I need to be spending it productively, not wasting time on LJ/Facebook/etc.
How long will I be gone? Who knows? Maybe a month or so…however long it takes for me to get my act together.

August 18, 2006

This week has been crazy. We had a session at work Tues-Thurs and I was there for 90% of it. Yesterday I didn’t get out until nearly 6, after having been there non-stop since about 8. I was tired. I’ve been falling asleep somewhere between 9:30 and 10 recently. That’s so lame!

Counseling appointment went…well, it went.  I do really well as long as I don’t talk about or think about a lot of things. When I’m forced to, the outcome is not pretty (and frankly, neither am I). I am definitely going to be doing some work to get back to being the semi-productive individual I used to be. The counselor said I do have depression, but it may or may not require medication. I’m hoping not.

This weekend is my last weekend of freedom until December. Poooh. The next few weekends will be nuts. The 25/26 I will be in Chattanooga looking after my mom. Labor Day weekend I will be in Chicago attending a wedding that Scott is in. The following weekends will be tied up finishing my dang paper in time to submit it by October 1. I have a few different angles I’m thinking of taking, so I need to look at what I have so far and decide. Soon. I also need to buy my plane ticket. Hopefully that won’t run me too much. I just now feel like I’m in a relatively good position money wise and I’d like to stay there, thanks.

I think I ought to get some work done so if the boss pops in I look like the good employee he thinks I am.

August 13, 2006

I am astounded at how fast the day went by. I woke up at 7:15 and now I look and it’s 5:41. It’s been an overall fun day. I went to this spa demonstration thing over at one of my favorite coffee shops (that’s usually closed on Sunday, but they opened up for her to do her spa day and to get some renovation work done. I came out w/ a tube of sunscreen and a sweet bag of samples. I’ve been home reading (even though classes don’t crank up for almost 2 weeks) and just trying to relax. This weekend felt all too short.

Tomorrow is my counseling appointment and to be honest I’m sort of nervous because I just don’t even know where to start if they ask something like “So what’s going on/why are you here?” I’m also afraid that I’ll just break down into some snivelling mess and not get anything out of it. How smart I am to schedule it when I have to be back at work right afterwards. Duh.

Yay! August 11, 2006

I just found out that I got my paper proposal accepted for a conference in November out in Spokane. Sweeet!

I guess that means I should start actually working on the darn thing….

Freaking out August 9, 2006

Scott and I did some errands last night (I went out to get new glasses, he needed a haircut) and we got in around 8:30 or so. I noticed that one of the neighbors kids had left his light on inside his car, so I went over there to let them know. (Nothing like a dead battery to ruin your morning!) When I went over there she thanked me and then asked me to come in and she called for her husband to come into the foyer. She then let me know that they had been the victims of two different thefts in the last few weeks. The first was their old lawn mower. She said that it had needed some repairs and that both her and her husband had just assumed that the other one had taken it to the shop. Then their van had the console ripped out and the CD player stolen. I mentioned that a couple months ago we had an old bike parked behind the stoop to our side door and that it had been stolen (we didn’t lock it up or anything, but still). It wasn’t a huge loss by any means, but it certainly freaked us out because someone really would have had to be looking or snooping around, since it wasn’t really visible from the street. We’ve both seen a group of teenage boys wandering around and sort of looking for trouble.I just know the look. Walking really slow, sort of scanning houses as they walk by…they aren’t just out for some fresh air and exercise.  We’re thinking it’s them, but you never know. If it is them, school is starting up soon, so maybe the problem will take care of itself. Then again, maybe not.

Another thing that bothers me is that our neighbors kids are 16 and 17, and pretty popular. They always have friends over and whatnot, so they seem to know a lot of people. Shirley (our neighbor) mentioned that one day the group of kids walked by and she asked her kids if they knew them and they had no idea who they were. That means that they aren’t from our neighborhood, so they could possibly have nefarious purposes, trolling around like they are.

Our house is pretty secure, but I can’t help but be a little freaked out. Sometimes I’m not so vigilant about things like putting the security stick in the sliding glass door or locking my car, but you better believe I will be from now on.

ETA: I called a cops a little while ago and they will come patrol a little more often. Let’s hope that solves the prob.

August 8, 2006

Working for teh man is really putting a kink in my life. I feel like I wake up, go to work, come home, eat, zone out, then go to bed. I don’t feel like I’m doing enough “stuff,” for lack of a better term. I get bored really easily and I’m so worried that I’m not going to have the motivation to be successful academically. I am hoping that I can unload some mental baggage with counseling so that I can work a little better. I told Scott that I’m going and he is really supportive, which is good because I’ve been through dealing with a significant other who thinks that I don’t need counseling and I don’t care to do it again. (It was impossible to talk about my problems w/ someone who was the problem.)

Haiku August 7, 2006

Here is my problem
I have let myself stagnate
Very bad, Heather

Counseling appointment next Monday at 10. We’ll see….

August 7, 2006

Another Monday, another week. Bleh.

I went to my dad’s this weekend. Lots o’ fun, including a trip up to the Jack Daniel’s Distillery (yes, really). It’s in historic Lynchburg and I had been a couple times as a kid. They’ve done a lot of improvement on the grounds, which in some ways seems to detract from the rustic charm of the place, and Lynchburg is totally tacky now. Sigh. Things just aren’t what they used to be. We ate at the A&W in Huntsville on the way home and then swung by Target before I headed back to Tuscaloosa.

I’m really not in the mood to deal w/ anyone today. I just want to shut and lock my door and get my shit done and go home. I think we’re going to B’ham tonight to buy a wedding gift for some friends of ours who got married a month ago.

Fun-size Heath Bars and hibiscus tea are all I need for happiness, at least today.