Haphazard Musings of a Budding Academic

Be a friend, just run over me now! March 31, 2006

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I feel absolutely like utter shite. I’ve had a 101+ fever since yesterday afternoon and it doesn’t really respond to Advil too well. I took two Advil (and a looooong nap) and the lowest I could get it was 99.4 (which for me is quite high since I usually run 97.0-97.8). It then proceeded to spike up again before the Advil even had time to wear off!! I have almost no appetite, no energy and I just want to get under the covers and cry and whine (which is basically what I did for 30 minutes last night after going to class…that wasn’t a good idea). I feel awful because I had planned to go visit my mom tomorrow and hang out and help her set up her laptop, but if I continue to feel like this, no WAY will I feel like a 3 hour drive. I called her today to update her and she seemed ok with it, but I felt like she was a little disappointed. She was going to make such a good lunch for me,too, and I’m going to miss it.

I didn’t do anything today. Big surprise. I missed class and stayed in bed all day. Oh, what fun.

 

the waiting game March 30, 2006

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Job interview went really well. I felt pretty at ease and felt like I was able to make a good impression. The job sounds pretty cool, albeit low-paying (at first). Really, I won’t be taking home any more than I already do, but I get benefits, sick/vacation leave and a chance for advancement, which my current job (or should I say jobs?) doesn’t offer. I looked really cute in a cream-colored Bandolino suit (jacket and knee-length skirt) with a baby-blue linen shell underneath and my Nine West heels that look sort of like black and tan saddle shoes. I did a little extra to my hair so that it wasn’t its usual unruly self and did just a little more makeup than usual. I feel like I looked very professional and put together, and I’m sure hoping they noticed. Of course, I hope they don’t expect me to look like that every DAY if I do get the job. At one point I mentioned my asthma/allergies (because I’m soooo congested/sore throated/miserable today) and one of the interviewers said, “Well, if the air in your office bothers you, we’ll be happy to provide a portable air filter for you. We like to include rather than exclude.” Am I overreacting when I think that’s a good sign?

The only downside is that I wouldn’t be allowed to be a research assistant. I’m not sure how I feel about that. On one hand, it might be nice to work in an office whose work is very, very closely related to my own (it’s within the College of Education). On the other hand, I worry that I might lose valuable experience by not being a GRA. I think I may need to talk to Heather (my current Research Supervisor) and see what she thinks and how strongly she was planning on me working for her next year. Fact is, I can’t survive on less than $1000/month, so if I didn’t get this job and decided to be a R.A., I would have to still find another part-time job to get me by. Yesterday I realized that my credit card balance is waaay out of control, so I froze that sucker in a Ziploc bag filled with water. It was the only way, I think. It may seem a bit extreme, but I think I need to get serious about paying off the balance. I went to some debt calculator yesterday and figured out that it will take nearly a year and a half to pay off my current balance, if I pay around $150/month. Yeah, that’s a problem!

So anyways, I’m hoping to hear something in a few days, either way. If I don’t get the job, then my decision is made for me (ergo, easier). If I do get it, I have some tough choices to make. The good thing is I do get one class/semester paid for and I get half price tuition after that, so I still could take 2 or 3 classes/semester and still work. Something to ponder…

 

Oh boy! March 29, 2006

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Job interview tomorrow! Wish me luck!!!!

In other news, I went to the doctor today to finally address all my issues I’ve been having lately (fatigue, lungs not working well, heartburn, and bruising). I had some blood drawn and I’m going back in a couple weeks for results. I hope I’m ok. My 11:30 meeting was cancelled (big surprise) so now I’m at home being worthless.

 

Case of the Mondays March 27, 2006

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  • Teaching today was blah as usual. I ran into my boss and she seemed ok with me not coming back. As if there was anything she could do about it, other than completely change the way she hires people and give me a massive pay raise. Like I said, nothing she can do about it.
  • We got a card in the mail from the Nielsen people…we’re going to be a Nielsen ratings house for a week! Yay! I always thought that shit was bogus, but apparently not. I wonder what sort of perks they offer…
  • I considered skipping class, but then thought better of it, only to arrive and no one else showed up. I’ll be really pissed if there was class but it got moved/delayed/etc.
  • I got all motivated and stuff today and bought new cabinet fasteners and stuff to re-caulk the shower today at Home Depot. I’ve already installed the cabinet fasteners and I’m halfway thru caulking the shower. Squee!!!

And now for something completely different…

A. Four jobs you’ve had in your life:
1. Clerk at the Off Campus Association
2. Graduate Research Assistant at Alabama
3. Piano teacher at Musical Beginnings
4. Data entry slave at Mercedes

B. Four movies you could watch over & over:
1. Amelie
2. Hilary and Jackie
3. O Brother Where Art Thou
4. It’s A Wonderful Life

C. Four places you have lived:
1. Orlando, FL
2. Nevada, MO
3. Huntsville, AL
4. Decatur, AL

D. Four TV shows you love to watch:
1. King of the Hill
2. Law and Order: SVU
3. Everyday Italian
4. I Love the 80s

E. Four places you’ve been on vacation:
1. San Francisco
2. Savannah
3. Chicago
4. Egypt

F. Four websites you visit (almost) daily:
1. Tuscaloosa News
2. livejournal
3. WebCT
4. jobs.ua.edu

G. Four of your favorite foods:
1. Indian
2. Mexican
3. Ethiopian/African
4. Broccoli with cheese/Macaroni w/ cheese

H. Four places you’d rather be right now:
1. San Francisco
2. Europe
3. getting a massage
4. anywhere but here, really

I. Four of your favorite things to do:
1. drink tea
2. listen to music
3. take walks/jogs/bike rides on a warm sunny day
4. take a bubble bath/aromatherapy bath

J. Four of your favorite drinks:
1. tea (hot)
2. grape juice
3. Mt. Dew (serious guilty pleasure)
4. a really good cup of coffee, with cream and sugar

 

Feeling conflicted here… March 27, 2006

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So over spring break my boss sent out an e-mail to everyone requesting their availability for summer and fall, and she wants to have all the info by April 3. This means I have to tell her this week that I am not coming back. As of now I still don’t have a job lined up and I am so worried. However, I feel like I can’t justify staying there because I’m unhappy and it creates a nasty situation tax-wise (my refund went from around $500 to less than $100, if you’ll recall). I’m not sure how to word my e-mail to her, though. Should I mention that working for her screws me over financially? Should I mention that I am unhappy? Or should I just say something like “I feel like I need more time to devote to academics, so I will not be coming back”? Another issue is, how I back out of summer, since I’m not going to be in school. Maybe I could say I’m taking a few classes or something. I hate to lie, but she is really nosy and if she finds out anything about you (i.e., you dropped a class) she’ll start pushing you to take over a class that meets at that time. The problem is that she employs so many young people (some as young as high school age)and she doesn’t relate very well to people like me who are a little older and have a better sense of responsibility. I’m only one of about 4 people in the company who actually have a degree. All the rest are college-age and younger.

So, if anyone has any suggestions as to how I should handle this, I’d love to hear them. I’m so at a loss, but I have to act quickly.

ETA: Here’s what I just sent her:

{Boss}-
Due to personal reasons, I will not be returning for the fall. I also do not plan to teach this summer. Teaching at {company} has been a very educational experience for me, but I feel like I need to pursue other interests. If I can be of any assistance to you in the future, do not hesitate to call.
Thanks,

{me}

(I hope it gets the job done!)

 

Picchers!!! March 26, 2006

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San Fran recap March 26, 2006

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As of March 18th, I have been plotting my move to San Francisco. For real. I have to get the fcuk out of Alabama. I had a great time and not only that, I saw not a single “W” sticker the whole time I was there. It’s like heaven, really.

So to start with, let me offer my dears some valuable advice: never EVER fly United Airlines. NEVER. Just don’t do it. Those bastards are the most rude, incompetent and fcuked up airline I’ve ever seen (and this is coming from someone who took a transatlantic flight on EgyptAir, so that’s saying a lot). Picture the scene, if you will: Scott and Heather wake up at 5 AM in their hotel that is a short (10 minute) drive to the airport. We get to the airport at around 6:05 and are in line to check in by 6:15 in order to get on our 7:00 AM flight to San Francisco. At 6:30, we get nervous when we realize that the line isn’t really moving very fast. We hear one of the airline employees yell “Denver, if you’re going to Denver, come up here!” So then we say, “Excuse me, we should be checking in, too. We’re going to San Francisco.” Dude says, “Oh, I closed you out 15 minutes ago,” and then abruptly turns his back and ignores us. Picture me the angriest you’ve ever seen me, then multiply it by 50 and you’ll understand how f’ing pissed I was. Long story short, we did NOT get on our 7 am flight and instead waited around the damn airport for 7 hours until we managed to catch a 2:30 flight to Chicago (and then to SF). We then had to wait for a 6-something flight from Chi to SF. The United employees there were no better in terms of politeness or competence. Not only that, but despite the fact they royally fucked us over, we still had to pay a $50 fee to be able to get on the 2:30 flight (rather than just stick around another DAY, which would have also cost us). We landed in SF a full 12 hours after our intended time of arrival. Not cool. We basically lost a full day because some asshole that works for United in the Hartsfield-Jackson Airport decided to be a jerk. I will never fly with them again, no matter what kind of rates they offer. Scott tried to call customer service today and they’re freaking closed on the weekends. Hopefully we’ll be able to get our $50 back and maybe then some.

In spite of that, we had a really cool first night in SF. We had dinner at this really cool Pakistani place in the Mission where everything was really cheap. After that we went to Mike’s place and crashed. The next day we drove around town a bit, went down Lombard Street and then drove over to the East Bay to have dinner w/ Scott’s friend Eric. We had an awesome dinner of manicotti and and almond tart. Monday we really didn’t do much because the weather was miserable (cold and rainy). It was kind of cool to have a lazy day, although we did go to Rainbow foods, this awesome vegetarian co-op grocery store that had some amazing stuff (vegan german chocolate cake that is waaay better than any german chocolate cake I’ve had before) and I cooked dinner for all of us (since I wasn’t in a position $-wise to take us out) and it turned out really good. Usually I’m not too handy in other people’s kitchens, so definitely a first for me. Tuesday we went to the DeYoung museum to see their special exhibit (International Arts and Crafts Movement) and their permanent collection (really great stuff). We also tooled around Haight-Ashbury a little while and I found an awesome Brubeck Trio album from the late 40’s (with Cal Tjader and Ron Crotty) for $7.99. It was the first time I made a record store clerk say “Whoa.” A proud moment for sure.

Wednesday we went to the Golden Gate bridge and walked halfway across and took some pictures. The weather was really pretty and the sun made the most perfect shots. I was a little freaked out by the number of crisis phones on the bridge, but given that over 1000 people have committed suicide by jumping off the bridge, I can’t say that it’s a bad idea. We went to the Exploratorium with Utz, Elizabeth, and Utz’s nephew Max. It was the most crazy amazing museum ever, with all sorts of science-y exhibits. I even drank out of a toilet (totally clean and unused of course) in an exhibit called “A Sip of Conflict.”

There’s a really cool art gallery there called “Creativity Explored” where people with developmental disabilities create art and earn a living through that. It was a really cool place and I got to see some people at work on various projects. I ended up buying a really awesome piece for $15 that had Chinese characters all over it and difference splotches of color. I found a frame for it today at Target ($6!!!) and it’s now hanging over the mantel.

Friday we hung around Berkeley and had dinner at an awesome place in the Mission called “Amira” that was a pan-Arab restaurant with amazing food. Sadly, can’t say the same for the bellydancer that was there (she totally sucked) but the atmosphere was great.

I’ll post some pics later!

 

March 16, 2006

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I’m not sure what’s going on, but two nights in a row now I’ve had, um, intestinal distress. I haven’t been eating anything unusual (well, unusual by my standards) yet I’ve been pretty sick. Last night I went to bed relatively early (after iPodding and installing Office 2003) only to wake up around 12 feeling really, really awful. I had a fever and chills (Scott said I felt really warm but I was freezing with a sheet, a down comforter, and another down comforter doubled up on top of me)terrible nausea, a headache, and I couldn’t stay out of the bathroom. Today I felt so-so, but tonight I’ve felt icky again. What is UP???! I can’t be getting sick now.

Class tonight was really draining because we discussed three weeks’ worth of reading in a span of less than 3 hours. Really dense conversation, and sort of hard to stay with, even for me. As nice as it was not to have class for a couple weeks, I can’t really say that it was worth it. After class I met Scott for dinner and then went to Utz’s house for an hour or so to play bridge and hang out. When my tummy started acting funny, I ducked out and headed home. I’m trying to get a little bit of laundry done before I leave so I don’t have a crapload to do when I get back.

Today I’ve been reading Nice Girls Don’t Get the Corner Office. Even though I’m still in the process of job hunting, I feel like it’s an informative read that will be beneficial in the future. There are a lot of crazy things women do to sabotage their credibility, and even I (the enlightened feminist…or so I’d like to think) am guilty of a few of them. I think especially being Southern and sort of cute looking (young and small in appearance) does a lot to hurt my credibility and others’ perceptions of me. I’m hoping that by adopting some of the strategies outlined in the book, I will have more people taking me seriously, both in and out of the workplace.

 

Sometimes she pretends… March 15, 2006

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I hate to say it, but I’m having a damn good time sitting around the house and doing nothing all by myself. I know I could/should be out but I’d rather just have Heather time. Scott is in Meridian at a Wilco show, and I just didn’t feel like going, so he’s with his colleague Mike (a fellow Chicagoan and Northwestern Law grad), which I think is great because I feel like he doesn’t get enough social time without me. I left campus around 2:30, came home, had a snack, took Brubeck for a walk (he looooves walks), took a bath to shave my legs (they were getting stubbly), then changed and went to Bad Ass for a couple hours to get some reading done. I’ve been going out more to read and write because I get too distracted around here to be productive. I then ran to Publix for a lovely dinner of soy mac n cheeze, a pecan flying saucer, and a bagel for in the morning. I ate dinner, watched TV (some Discovery Health special on a family with 16 kids), and now I’m just fooling around on teh interweb. I need more nights like this.

I’ve pretty much finished packing for SF, with a few minor things that will have to wait ’til Friday, like my makeup. We’ll head to Atlanta sometime Friday and just eat dinner and hang out, going to bed hellaciously early since our flight leaves at 7 AM Eastern, meaning we’ll need to get up by 4:30 Central. That’s going to suck.  I may try to sleep on the plane, but I know from past experience this probably won’t happen because I get too dehydrated to sleep. The good thing about all this is that we’ll get into SF around 9 am and we’ll have the whole day ahead of us, rather than losing half a day. I think we’re going to go to Wine Country or maybe even drive down the Pacific Coast Highway (not the whole thing, but a decent portion of it). Either way, it’ll be nice to have a little out of town excursion before we get to exploring the city. I have a feeling I’ll be eating really well on this trip!

I probably should go do something else for a little while.

 

March 14, 2006

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Well, I got up at a relatively decent hour (around 8) and got ready only to find out that my 10:30 meeting was cancelled. This is a pattern that I am getting REALLY tired of. I understand that she has to drive almost an hour and a half to get here, and that she has a 3-year-old to contend with (getting her to daycare), but when I have something planned, I generally count on it happening. Am I crazy for being this way? I think not. If my meetings aren’t cancelled, they’re at the very least delayed sometimes by 45 minutes. It gets to be a huge pain when I have a tight schedule on a particular day and things get thrown off by almost an hour. But what can I do? Nothing! People who complain to much (or at all) generally don’t get their assistantships renewed. So I will suck it up and deal. We met via phone for about 15 minutes and managed to get stuff done, and then we’re meeting in person tomorrow at 11:30 (or 11:45…or 12:00…) to get some more stuff done. Generally Wednesdays have become my “Go into the office for a few hours” day because I’m trying to put in as close to 20 hours as I can, which is sometimes hard in a given week. The last couple weeks it hasn’t really been a problem and I’ve put in anywhere from 15-20 hours. I’m getting paid the same regardless, so they are trying to get their money’s worth with me. Can’t say that I blame them.

I think I may need to admit pretty soon that I am not going to be returning to my current job next year. It’s not too cool of me to string them along like that, and if they need to hire some new people (which they surely will) they need to know sooner rather than later. I’m just so scared that I won’t have anything as backup and I’ll end up in a very similar situation to last summer. I’m thinking the law of odds is in my favor and that the more resumes I send out, the better my chances are of eventually finding something. I’m hoping I hear back from the DCH job. I mailed off 4 more resumes yesterday and applied for 2 more jobs online. If I keep up that average, I’ll be applying for 180 jobs/ month. If I can’t get a job after all that, then there is seriously something wrong!!!!

At first, I wasn’t going to apply for student loans for next year, since I don’t like the idea of borrowing still more money, but I think it may be good for me to have that money in case I need major car repairs done or if I buy a laptop. Granted, it accrues interest, but it beats buying a laptop on my credit card where the rate is much, much higher. I know I may need to plunk out a lot of money to keep my car running in good shape. As much as I’d love to get another car, I know that now is not the time. Maybe if I can get a good job and stay at it at least 6-12 months, I can start seriously thinking about stuff like that.